Lonely! I'm still lonely!‏

Okay, I'm really not that lonely. The elders I'm with love to sing me that song just to rub it in a little, because alas, I'm still the only Sister in my zone, the only spanish speaker left in my building (the dorms), and no tengo un companera! What is the world coming to???

So yes, I'm still here in the MTC, good ol' Provo. Don't think I'm complaining though. I'm not. I'm actually really okay with it, because I know the Lord doesn't just do things willy nilly. He always has a purpose. I'm still trying to find the purpose, the reason why I'm here, but I know there's one, and the Lord wants me to fulfill it.

The district of Elders that I'm with are all leaving Tuesday and Wednesday for the field. They think it would be all sorts of hilarious if I left after they did. Watch me laugh. haha. wow. I feel the enthusiasm.

No, in all seriousness, they don't REALLY want me to be stuck here longer, but they're trying to have a good sense of humor about it. The two elders that I teach with are Elder Yeaman and Elder Jackson. Sometimes- wait- most of the time they remind me of Adam, Micah, and Barrett. Mostly Adam though. Especially E.Yeaman. He's nuts:)

It's been an adjustment teaching, not only with someone who isn't my companion, but also Elders and in a trio at that. Sometimes their spanish isn't that good, so investigators in our lessons are like "Que en el mundo dice????" (como "What in the world are you saying???") So they don't litterally say that, but close enough. It's all about having patience right? I know that's one thing I need to learn from them. Sometimes I just want to take charge of the lesson and be like "let me explain this to you my way," but my way is so not the right way. I have to try and make this not only a good experience for the investigators and for the Elders. I can't tear them down or walk all over them. We've all got to learn together. Yeah, it'll take a while, but it's what we all need. I can wait for perfection.

The past few days when it has come to teaching have definitely been learning experiences. I've been trying to think of ways to not just sit there and never talk, and also to try to get to the people in spanish. English is one thing, spanish is another! I'm trying to pray for the gift of Charity, because we can't do anyting without it (1 Cor 13). Like being able to see others through Heavenly Father's eyes. I'm really trying to rely on the Lord so that I will know what to say, but not only what to say, but what they need. Heaven knows I don't know everything that these people need. The past two days we've been teaching a lot and I've been trying to actually be a useful tool in the Lord's hands, and I've felt the spirit so much like I'm actually doing some good! It's been so nice, especially since I've felt like I've been hitting a spiritual brick wall the past few weeks. I feel like an effective missionary again! Woo hoo!

What else to tell you... Oh yeah! Because I'm the only sister in our zone, I was called as the coordinating sister. Sometimes it feels kind of silly because I'm only coordinating myself, but a calling is a calling, and an opportunity to grow. I did get to teach the new elders we got this week with our zone leaders, and I hope that maybe I can be of some good influence. I don't want to be known as the annoying sister missionary who is a party pooper, or a downer, or a nagger. But I do want them to act like Elders called by God. I hope it's working. Just a little.

The new elders we have in our zone came to replace my district, District B, and although it's cool, it makes me miss my district! And it makes me feel so old! Holy moly! Mi vida es interestante, no?

I'm sorry if some of the stuff in here is a jumbled and crazy, I'm still trying to get all my thoughts together. But know that I love you all and pray for all the time, because alas, I love you!

Bethy poo, that goes for you too.

And Erin, WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME YOU WERE ENGAGED!!!!!!!! AAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! That was my AH! out of pure delight and excitement :)

xoxox

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